To me feelings don’t have to be where one person is the only thing you think about; but just that they are the one you think about in that way. Relationships don’t have to be hard, but that doesn’t mean they are always easy. At the end of the day, you should feel happy with who you are with. Feelings can be directed to many people, just be careful that you don’t allow anyone to abuse your affection. Don’t let someone treat you in a way that is less than you feel like you deserve. Be careful about who you choose to hate, don’t hate blindly, for you don’t know the reason they are in your life. If you can, try to not hate at all, it’s a waste of your energy to focus on the bad. Unless someone is mean to you, you shouldn’t say bad things about them. Even if someone is mean to you though, you should still aim to filter your words. Who knows, the person you’re talking about today, might end up as your friend later on. If someone is saying bad things about you behind your back, don’t turn around and say bad things in return; it will make you no better than them. Unless you know for a fact that something is true, don’t go talking about it like it is.
Boyfriends. Do we really need them? Honestly, probably not, but they surely do make life more… Interesting. Knowing that there’s someone, who you’re paired off with, in this world that has gotten so accustomed to pairing off; finally, you’re in one of the beloved pairs! (Not necessarily for life, but for a little while). Now I know that being in a relationship doesn’t make you any more, or less, of a person. I don’t even know what age I think it’s good to get in a relationship, or to be at least open to starting one, because I guess I think it depends on each individual person. In my opinion, relationships are pretty fun. I like to be a serious person, but I also like to have someone that I can be silly with, and weird around, and that likes me for me. I know you can get that from a best friend, or like someone who doesn’t necessarily have to fit the description of a physically involved partner. But, it’s surely more fun when those silly moments, can lead to a kiss, and make that moment feel that little extra bit of fun. I know you’re probably thinking something like “Hello! Being in a relationship, and kissing people isn’t what life is all about!” I definitely realize that, I’m just describing my thoughts of being in relationships. I do feel like its important to not become obsessed with being in relationships though, because that’s not healthy; and being single for a while does help you realize that having another person liking you that way, is not a factor of survival, and that you can be strong on your own. So now that that is clear, I’ll try to redirect back what I was trying to say. They can be a fun thing, and they can be a hard thing.
Hmm… Now I’ve kind of forgotten what I was getting at…
Ahh, yes! I remember; I was getting to my thoughts of affection. I feel like one of my most favorite things about relationships is cuddling, and just hugging that special person. I just helps to reaffirm (in my opinion) the way you care about each other. Having special time with a special person is the best, it makes me so happy. About a week or two ago, I was hanging out with my boyfriend at my house. I hadn’t seen him for about almost two weeks. I didn’t realize, until after we hugged, how much I had missed him, and just craved the feeling of being close to him, and being able to touch him. The rest of our time hanging out was very enjoyable; I was just flooded with happy emotion. Seeing him after a while of not being able to, just filled my happiness and love tank, to an all time high. I was over come with happy feelings for him. In my opinion, although it was a fairly short amount of time in retrospect, it felt like forever for our budding relationship. The length of our relationship now could probably be compared to a little sprout of a relationship, much more developed than a seed, but not necessarily a tree. We’ve been going out for almost two months now, and I really enjoy his company, and talking to him. He was a guy that I had a crush on for a while, and then when he said that he wanted me to be his girl ever since he saw me, it made my day. What makes me amazed though, is how different relationships can be with each person you date. In the grand scheme of things, I look at this relationship as my first serious, and notable relationship. I was sort of the girlfriend of a guy before the archer, and it lasted for longer than the archer and I have been going out, but it was far less of a relationship. In three months, I had allowed him to only kiss me twice. I didn’t want to kiss him, and sadly only realized that after I had already agreed to being his girlfriend. I would make excuses not to kiss him, and he just accepted it. He didn’t try to make any emotional connection by deeply talking to me at all, and I felt bored when I talked to him, because I tended to keep the conversation going. He would only complain about his little siblings, and then it just just became annoying because when I would try to talk about something I wanted to speak about (granted the one thing I’m thinking of is an intellectual discussion) he just would shrug it off and not even humor me. To me, I had been talking to this guy for two years as friends (fb friends) and we had good conversations, but when I agreed to being his girlfriend, he seemed to not care what I had to say anymore. I have the capacity to like personalities, where they can be more attractive than looks, and I had thought his personality (his online one that is) seemed nice. He wasn’t very attractive, and I could tell that from his pictures, but I was attached to the personality. So I went out with him. When I realized that both aspects weren’t good… I broke up with him… Over text nonetheless. Lets just say, I wanted it to be over, and over soon. I know it’s not considerate to break up over text, but it felt like there wasn’t a better way. Because I wanted to make sure to end it, and I hadn’t seen him for like the last third of our relationship, so it’s not like I could arrange a time to see him, and I didn’t want to have to wait long. We never had even hung out anywhere other than our one meeting spot (a public facility). He didn’t come over to my house the entire three months, and honestly, I didn’t want him to.
Now my current boyfriend (code name, the archer): Let’s just say, we beat the kissing record of my last relationship, in the first day. We had talked a bit before we got together, on fb, and had talked in person before he found my Facebook, so it’s not like I jumped into it. I was glad to know that he is definitely a way better kisser than the first guy. I had convinced myself that kissing didn’t have it have fireworks for the fist guy, or like that it was probably overrated and that that was why it sucked with me and the first guy. Nope, I was just making excuses for his horrible kissing. Because according to him, I was good. In my book though, he was not, and it made me feel uncomfortable to kiss him. He was my first kiss though. With my archer though, kissing feels right, and has an even more powerful affect when we don’t get to do it for the length of just a few days. I’m glad to have found my arch, because we definitely have a connection. He makes me happy, and I miss him when I’m not with him. That was completely not the case with the other guy. I just didn’t know that relationships could be this affecting to your moods. I guess it’s just what happens though when you like someone, and start to get attached to them.
I can honestly say, I’ve never felt this way before, and am excited to see what the future holds for me and my archer.
The reason I wanted to I write this post was because, I wanted to express my thoughts on a certain style of writing. It’s a style of writing that I respect, yet at the same time, dislike. It’s kind of like contemporary art in a way, this writing style. You take materials from things around you, add your own flair to it, and then it’s your piece of art, or writing. The other day, I saw this thing in the news paper about a book sculpture that someone did. I thought to my self “that’s interesting looking, but how is it art? Like how could someone consider themselves an artist if they are taking already made materials, and just glueing them together?” I came to the conclusion that I guess the artistic part of modern art is that we take these regular items, and create them into a figment of our own imagination. But, I don’t consider it art when someone takes just one book or something, puts it on a frame, and then claims that it’s ‘art’. In one tree hill, Lucas writes about his own experiences, but I think he writes it in the heir of it being fiction. In some aspects, it could be fiction. After all, not everything we write about our real lives has to be true. But to me, it’s kind of a less creative way of writing, not that people who use this style aren’t great writers or anything. But, I feel like some people try to pass off a book as this great fictional piece that they created, but every character is like someone from their actual life (mimicking almost every aspect of the person, that is). I don’t mind reading a book that uses the characters as real life person’s look, occupation, hobbies, etc. But, when your books are all of characters completely fabricated from others around you, I feel like you should be truthful to yourself; you’re writing a piece of fiction with you, and the people closest to you in life, not a fiction that you pulled out of a hat or something. Dan Humphrey, from gossip girl, has this style of writing as well. He has ways of describing the characters in ways that are creative, but everyone in his books are based off of real life. I like it when writers at least own up to the fact that these characters are supposed to be, and are meant to be, based off of certain people. Eventually, though, I feel like a writer has to break out of the shell of what they know, and transition into writing where they ease away from completely describing someone in their own life rather than actually making their own characters.
When it comes to my thoughts, I like to be heard. I think back, and believe that that was one of the main reasons why I decided to start blogging. It made me happy knowing that my thoughts, as inconsequential as they may be, could be heard. It’s not like I have any ground breaking discoveries or ideas to constantly share. Although, I do feel like I have opinions, and experiences, that are interesting and that matter. So, I thought “well, people solely go to blogging websites to read about topics that relate to them, or interest them. It’s a place to share, and discuss, your thoughts.” If you ask me, I think that’s pretty dang cool. It’s an easy way of self expression, and a good outlet to find open ears… or minds that is, to share your thoughts with. That’s why, readers, I feel very happy each time I see that another one of you is following me. It makes me happy to see that some people are interested in listening further to what I have to say.
This is so accurate. I’m staring to think that I should try to start getting in bed earlier because I waste about an hour of sleep almost every night, because of my thoughts. It just makes me wonder if the people who do fall asleep quickly just don’t ponder anything, or maybe they have a […]
It’s a good thing phones have auto-correct now, right? now that work contacts, emailing, and Facebook are all on our phones, it helps us to not lazy! the fact that most of our misspelled words are changed to the correct spelling, or that we no longer a responsible for capitalizing our I’s, and making sure to put an apostrophe in words like “can’t” and “didn’t.” What did people do before? Does that last question mean that there was actually a time before auto-correct, where we were required to use our brain to correct our own errors?? Crazy, right? To think…. there was actually a time where we had to do all that stuff on our own… I guess this generation will just look back, and be like “Poor people who had to put effort into things… Didn’t you have an app for that??”
Seriously though, we’ve gotten too dependent on it. I find myself switching between mobile to desktop quite a lot, and I actually have to go through and capitalize all of my I’s, because I’ve gotten so used to letting my device do it for me.
Why can’t I think as clearly as some people? Some days (mostly in 2012’s school year) I feel like I have ADD when it came to my thought process. Like for instance, sometimes I can’t hold a thought for longer than like a minute before my mental dialogue changes to something that’s the polar opposite […]
So, I decided to share this picture because I feel like it describes how I think in some ways. I know that most people probably think these thoughts when they see their crush (or even a cute person), but the meaning isn’t exactly what I’m getting at here. It’s how it’s written. Fast, confusing (only […]
Passionate, reserved, naive, and happy. Maybe I’ll write a post about what I think these words could mean, even if they aren’t necessarily 100% correct.
I’m thinking of writing a book. There’s this cool app called watt pad for iPod and iPhone users, and I think they have a website too. So I’m thinking of making an account and writing stuff, to share there. My only dilemma is that I usually don’t finish book ideas that I’ve started. This time I hope to, though. Last year in November, I had started a book, and participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), and finished the challenge of writing 50,000 O.O words… and I haven’t touched the book since. I didn’t finish the book in those 50,000 words either, but sadly I have no desire to revisit it to edit, and finish it. Although, who knows, maybe I will sometime in this next year. But my plan now is that I’ll practice some short stories, by posting them on Watt pad, and then I’ll move on to the NaNoWriMo task this November, and hopefully finish a book so that I can redeem 5 free copies of it 🙂 (I could’ve redeemed that deal with my book from last year if i had finished it and edited it by this time this year, but alas, I didn’t, I’m a slacker like that sometimes :P)
So that is my plan for writing this year dear readers (or maybe just reader? haha), along with making sure to write to you all about my troubles with writing short stories, writing a book, and even about daily things that I might get inspired to share with you.