Nostalgic for smells

So, earlier today, after my workout, I was taking a shower. After I popped open the lid of my shampoo, I had a remembrance of the same scent, but from the past. My shampoo is coconut scented; and it’s smell is along the lines of the same scent of a my little pony I used to own, from when I was like ten years old. It was kind of strange, smelling my shampoo and thinking of a plastic toy pony. One certain moment of playing with that toy also pops up in my head every time I think of it. I had played with it many times, but that time, for some odd reason, stuck out to me. Anyways, now that I’m sitting here writing this, it has made me aware of other scents, or times, of nostalgia I’ve experienced.
The scent of the air on a fall day. The sense of wonder about relationships with boys, and the days when the idea of it felt intangible. How I felt when I met the archer for the first time. How I felt when I felt something for the archer the first time. Now, even though it’s not that far in the past, the way I felt when I met and talked to Dominco for the first time. How I felt just the other day, when I would pause, thinking “is this when we’ll kiss?”
Memories and nostalgia are a wonderful thing. I like to try and look back on my memories and not be sad that they are memories, but be happy that they happened. I don’t want good times to have to become memories, but that’s what life is; It is a compilation of memories. You have a set duration of time, that you remain unaware of from the day you’re born, until the day you die. I think that the point of life, is to love to your full extent, and to really make your mark in people’s hearts. In order to live a fulfilling life, in my opinion, is to be remembered in a substantial way. To be remembered for a special thing that you do. Maybe I will write a book, maybe I could be a motivational speaker, or maybe I could create something new. I don’t know what my life’s purpose is yet, but I know I want to leave this world having meant something. I want to make my mark, in the chaos of life.
Maybe my mark could be to one person. To mean the world to one person, could possibly make me, mean something to the world in it all.

The breakdown

There’s a time that you won’t see coming. It doesn’t happen to everyone, but I think it maybe–possibly, it happens to most . That moment where you break down, and cry. Not because it’s over, but because you want to know if you’ll ever feel that way again… one can only hope. People think you’re […]

Capture me

Capture my interest. Tell me how you feel when I look at you. Tell me the moments that have made you fall in love with me. If I ask you why you fell in love with me, it isn’t because J have doubts that you did. It’s because I’m curious. It makes me curious that another individual can care for me in such a deep way. Even I dont think that I can explain the feelings of love I have for people. It just happens. But, I’m hoping that one day, when I ask someone “why do you love me?” after they’ve professed their love, they’ll be able to answer with a story. How it all began with the way I spoke, or maybe even looked at them. Then maybe, the story woild twist and turn, and they woild tell me that theu were sure when they saw the way i looked at them, pr cared for them. I would hope that i’d find someone, who can with all of their heart, give me a beautfil description. Someone to capture me; someone to attempt to describe feelings that can’t be described. feelings that you think in order to know them, you have to feel them first. But i ask of you, to try to learn how to describe your feelings to me. I won’t think you’re stupid or lame for an attempt at professing your feelings about me, through words. I will think it’s amazing that you’d try. Not enough people these days can describe, in a wonderfull fashion, how they feel about someone– becasue they don’t seek to. How about some of you try this: Get a pen and paper. Or an empy word doc. Start with this thought, “who do I love?” does anyone come to mind, your pet, parents, siblings, friends, significant other, etc? Pick the one special person in your life that you wish to express your intermost thoughts for.

then start there, write out how you feel about them. Keep writing the thoughts, and revising the entire truth of how you think you fell in love with them. Then tell them. Or, once you’ve finished, even if you don’t tell them, be content that you spent this time to write down how you feel for someone.